Remedy for Memory

My Galau Eraa -Deasyp-

You almost convinced me
that happiness was something worth waiting for
that one day,
after enough patience,
after enough faith,
we would finally find our way
to each other.
So I silenced every doubt.
I folded away every fear.
I carried hope
like it was something fragile
that only you could keep alive.
Then reality smashing me hard
And somehow,
I became the story you've told

Try explain why everything fell apart.
You said I stood between you and your future.
You said I was the reason.

The truth is,
I never wanted to stand between anyone.
I only wanted someone to stand beside me
when words sharper than knives
left me tired
to defend myself.
But once again,
I let silence take my side.
If blaming me made your life easier,
then I will carry that weight
without asking you to.
That was the last thing
I ever did for us.

I walked away
without your hand to hold,
without your voice
Telling me it would be alright.
Perhaps
that is what love looks like
when it belongs to only one person.
Without sound.
Without drama.

Just unbearably lonely.
You didn't only leave.
You left me questioning
every promise
I had built a future around.
So if peace has finally found you,

keep it.
I'll stop searching for answers
in someone
who never stayed long enough
to give them.
As for our memories
they no longer need a grave.
I'll simply leave them
where they can no longer

follow me home.